Bit-TawfeeQ wa bil-Hidayah
Today my Arabic teacher Tawfeeq, sat with me after class and
marked my exams paper, and he went through the questions and aswers with me one by one. He corrected
my mistakes and praised me for the correct answers. I was thrilled anticipating
my final result. He then just passed me the paper to bring home to review my
correction. However he did not calculate my total score. I wanted to know if I
was top in class, so I told him to please calculate and let me know the scores.
He said he will do it the next day. A little disappointed, I left school soon
after.
In the cab on the way home, I met another passenger who questioned
why I am learning Arabic learning. I answered, we from Asia read the Quran but
we do not understand. He replied, Allah will teach you through the heart. I
SMILED!!! J
Soon after, I recalled the exam scores incident again. It
is not enough that someone senior to us, or in authority to correct us with
what we did wrong. We also wish to be acknowledged and praised for our seemingly
fair deed. On top of that, we want to know the final result, to ensure that we
top the whole level. We want to be certain that we understood what we did, and
that we did it right, and if we did not get it right, we want to know what went
wrong. Most times we even argue to fend our wrong deeds or act!!!
But this is in reality for our present life only. What about
for our Akhirat. Now I understand about the Balance. On the Day of Judgement,
our good deeds will be placed on the right, the bad deeds, on the left. We will
be showed the ‘life video’ of every single thing we did. Nothing escapes HIS
eyes. We will be questioned for all those that we are responsible for, our
parents, our spouses, our children, our nearest of kins, and even our
neighbours. We will on that day be our own worst enemy if we have not been a
true sincere believing servant. The lips would be sealed, our skin, eyes and ears will bear witness for
our past actions and deeds. The final result is not when our record book will
be handed over on the right or our left hands. To top it up, for the
inhabitants of Paradise, there will be a light emitting within and/ in front of
them. For some, the light will be mild, for some others the light will be as
big as the mountains. That time they will be praying, in fear,
Rabbana atmim lana noorana waghfirlana innaka a3la kullia
shai3in Qadeer.
O our Lord, please complete the light upon us, forgive us,
for with You is all Power.
And with all this, how should we be living our day to day
life, moment to moment, second by second. May Allah forgive me and bless all of you. Ameen.
Ya Rabbee, grant us the power and ability to give thanks to
you for the favours you have granted upon us and our parents. Place us among
the righteous servants and grant us to do righteous deeds that pleases you.
Ameen.
z.m.